(I apologize in advance if this sounds confusing. I just had to sort things out.)
There is no way that we can know what is best for us. Pride and stubbornness sometimes gets in the way. If we take what we know, from life, our gut feeling or intuition is not necessarily something we can depend. Once in awhile, it gets cloudy, and it takes a step back to access the situation.
There is something brewing now, and I’m not sure what to do, or if I should do anything at all. It is a very detailed story, and goes back through so many lives, but has affected different people in very different ways. Some are trying to cover up, and pretend it doesn’t or didn’t exist. Some have faced it with the same mistakes made in their own lives. There are a few who walked away completely, knowing it was a waste of more life to try to convert a bad energy into a good one. I’m sure this is sounding confusing, but it is the only way I have to make it more cathartic, and to help me sort out some things.
After much more thinking and discussing with people close, I have come to realize there is a vast difference between good and evil, and there is no gray area. If people do not tell the truth, or be honest with themselves and others, shit rolls into their life. There are some who continue with masks and facades, without knowing they are doing anything wrong. There are some who want to show the world they have perfect lives, when they actually live two different lives. The lies catch up to everyone, and without realizing that even a subtle change towards good can make all the difference in the world, they continue on building lies upon lies. Soon, it gets contorted and a messed up version of the truth, until no one can distinguish between the two.
It’s just too much to keep up with. We all have crap we must deal with, and some days, it’s a lot to bear. But with strength, determination and honesty, I believe we can overcome the bad and turn the energy into good. Without exception, facades are no more than lies we are living, and lies must be overturned into truths - God willing, one day.
I have a person in my life, whom I love dearly. He has overcome sadness, and with a truckload of good in his heart, he was and is determined to find the love and good in everything around him. I am so lucky to have him share with me, because I don’t think I ever would be who I am today without him. Even as children, he taught me so much, and still look to him for guidance. Recently, a piece of advice from him has stuck with me. If it is good, leave it alone and go on your way, continuing with the good in your life. If it is bad, leave it alone and go on your way. We can not go back and change others, but we can take the good forward and leave the bad behind. So I now look back, and once again, try to pick and choose the good in someone else’s pile of shit.
It used to be very difficult for me to do this, but as I go forward, the good outweighs the bad in every circumstance. Truth forever will reign over evil. The hard part is to remind yourself of this every day. You would think it is a simple statement most people believe, but that isn’t necessarily the case. Too many contradictions can make you question the easiest belief.
I will be traveling soon, and with every single minute of planning this trip, something has happened to change plans. Every small event has become a monster problem to decipher. After each notation or correction is made on the itinerary, it becomes clear to me I’m being guided through this. Everything is happening for a specific reason, and there is a more powerful hand swaying me into a different direction, in every aspect of the trip. I’ve come to realize the importance will be with the two people I will see at the end of the trip. The directions I choose to make, keep changing back to the visit of these two people. When I add or change something, God is steering me back to them.
When do we give up to fate or God’s hand? It is something I’ve relinquished in the past, always reluctantly, until now. I will go where it is important for me to be. I have no idea why yet, but I have faith it will be known to me soon enough. I will go towards the good.
~~sigh~~ I feel much better.
There is no way that we can know what is best for us. Pride and stubbornness sometimes gets in the way. If we take what we know, from life, our gut feeling or intuition is not necessarily something we can depend. Once in awhile, it gets cloudy, and it takes a step back to access the situation.
There is something brewing now, and I’m not sure what to do, or if I should do anything at all. It is a very detailed story, and goes back through so many lives, but has affected different people in very different ways. Some are trying to cover up, and pretend it doesn’t or didn’t exist. Some have faced it with the same mistakes made in their own lives. There are a few who walked away completely, knowing it was a waste of more life to try to convert a bad energy into a good one. I’m sure this is sounding confusing, but it is the only way I have to make it more cathartic, and to help me sort out some things.
After much more thinking and discussing with people close, I have come to realize there is a vast difference between good and evil, and there is no gray area. If people do not tell the truth, or be honest with themselves and others, shit rolls into their life. There are some who continue with masks and facades, without knowing they are doing anything wrong. There are some who want to show the world they have perfect lives, when they actually live two different lives. The lies catch up to everyone, and without realizing that even a subtle change towards good can make all the difference in the world, they continue on building lies upon lies. Soon, it gets contorted and a messed up version of the truth, until no one can distinguish between the two.
It’s just too much to keep up with. We all have crap we must deal with, and some days, it’s a lot to bear. But with strength, determination and honesty, I believe we can overcome the bad and turn the energy into good. Without exception, facades are no more than lies we are living, and lies must be overturned into truths - God willing, one day.
I have a person in my life, whom I love dearly. He has overcome sadness, and with a truckload of good in his heart, he was and is determined to find the love and good in everything around him. I am so lucky to have him share with me, because I don’t think I ever would be who I am today without him. Even as children, he taught me so much, and still look to him for guidance. Recently, a piece of advice from him has stuck with me. If it is good, leave it alone and go on your way, continuing with the good in your life. If it is bad, leave it alone and go on your way. We can not go back and change others, but we can take the good forward and leave the bad behind. So I now look back, and once again, try to pick and choose the good in someone else’s pile of shit.
It used to be very difficult for me to do this, but as I go forward, the good outweighs the bad in every circumstance. Truth forever will reign over evil. The hard part is to remind yourself of this every day. You would think it is a simple statement most people believe, but that isn’t necessarily the case. Too many contradictions can make you question the easiest belief.
I will be traveling soon, and with every single minute of planning this trip, something has happened to change plans. Every small event has become a monster problem to decipher. After each notation or correction is made on the itinerary, it becomes clear to me I’m being guided through this. Everything is happening for a specific reason, and there is a more powerful hand swaying me into a different direction, in every aspect of the trip. I’ve come to realize the importance will be with the two people I will see at the end of the trip. The directions I choose to make, keep changing back to the visit of these two people. When I add or change something, God is steering me back to them.
When do we give up to fate or God’s hand? It is something I’ve relinquished in the past, always reluctantly, until now. I will go where it is important for me to be. I have no idea why yet, but I have faith it will be known to me soon enough. I will go towards the good.
~~sigh~~ I feel much better.
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